Hello! It has been quite some time since I kept a blog, so I feel like this assignment will be quite fun! Recently I’ve been learning a lot about the importance of design, and how to manage when you’re working for someone else. After all, as much as we like to design for ourselves, the industry we are apart of relies on working with others in order to provide a service. I’ve also have been learning to balance both life, school and work. I am currently a writer for a project that I am passionate for, but it is extremely time consuming. I write my own perspective, create my own scripts, and preform them live in front of an online audience twice a month. And when I’m not working on that, I work ahead on my assignments. So I find myself often stressing when balancing myself–because to be completely honest, it feels next to impossible–which causes issues where I am submitting things much later than intended.
The life I want to lead is one filled with projects. I worry a lot about my future, and how my choices determine where I go next. I love what I do–I love to write, and I love to design. But along the way I have found that attempting to rest also comes with a price. I’m someone who enjoys solitude, but those who I have found to be my closet confidants have said somethings regarding my passions. Sometimes they’re positive, but most of the time there is a coating of doubt that fills their words. I have also recently come to terms with my therapist that jealousy may be a part of how I am treated, but I try not to think about it due to my own insecurities on being a good friend.
I know I want this. I want to be in this industry. I want to design for others. I also want to provide creative projects on the side so people could be entertained by my stories and artwork. But as I progress into my second year at a full-time college, I am left wondering whether or not I am making the right choices. But despite this, I refuse to let the fire inside me die again. Because now, it burns hot like the sun on a cloudy morning–with hues of pinks and orange filling the sky.
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